i will survive

Trials

2011-10-03T20:44:00.000-07:00

i have always thought that i was one of those people who would just fight through things and make them bend to my will not effecting me. The last 2 months have proved me wrong
Back at the beginning of august,i was out late one night playing night games with friends(when i shouldn't have been) and at one point,i twisted my ankle badly enough i was afraid it was broken.
driving home scared the crap out of me.if something could hurt to that point when driving-how the heck could i run on it? the simple answer was that i couldnt i didnt even try for about a week or two. once i got back...it was bad i could run on it,i did i wouldnt let myself back down not after this last year.
this turned out to be a really crappy mindset. i was able to train i was improving but as the races proved my ankle was weak.i never let it heal i never gave it a chance to recover.
this added up to one race dropped out of and one that i didnt race. all in all it was a disheartening experience but ive fought through and caved to the voice telling me i needed a recovery.
No mater how many times i say it my ankle wasnt the biggest problem.neither my head nor my heart were really in it.my head had fallen appart between it all, i had a really long and exhausting summer that was punctuated with my twisted ankle and bad fights with my best friend.beyond even all of that i had lost the fight to still really run, i mean i was doing it, i was running and all but that was all i wasnt pushing, if it looked like it would be effort then there was some reasoning or excuse to hold myself back and take it easy, be careful.
my first attempt at breaking through and forcing myself to really push and fight to bring myself back was in seaside.that pushing sent me straight into a world of hurt. the agaony that filled my mind surpassed that of the ankle.everything kind of just broke loose.i was miserable iwas feeling overwhelmed by everything i was feeling like everything that could go wrong in my life was and it was by no means doing so gently. that walk back to find help was a long one. lots of thinking went on in that next few minutes.i was sick of letting myself be down. i had been there before and it sucked. i had to stop letting every little thing effect me or i was a goner. i let go,i opened up and set myself free again. i was done sulking about being the little sick/injured/jv kid- i was done with dealing with my own stupidity.
now at the start of that i said first attempt at breaking through. this is not 100% honest. had tried before but i didnt have the strength, well i didnt know it at least.since then ive been fixing things back up,school is going well, i dont feel as overwhelmed and well my running for the most part is back on track. I forced myself to race without fear, just the pure joy and fire of it-no holds. i let it rip saturday changed me. it changed me back.i had been in a bad way for a long time.with that run i dunno it kinda just broke the dam. i saw that i was still in here, i was still at control ready to go back off autopilot whenever i really made the choice.now,im really letting go im putting myself back together and not letting anything hold me back again.
this is my moment.
im taking it.
no matter what.

Time

2011-09-13T19:53:00.000-07:00

In one second, a race can be won or lost,a life saved or taken,a friendship made or broken. Being who i am,a runner makes me appreciate time a little more than most. Over my time in high school much in my life has changed,ive changed my views on various things ive shifted from a mediocre runner content with just fighting to the finish to being a runner that competes seriously and about 5 minutes faster than i did freshman year.
in other things i have gone from someone packed tight in a little shell to someone who is a wee bit more outgoing and doesnt mind being in large groups
cross country has helped alot with that,the funniest thing is is that most of the changes in my life have been in the last year, year and a half im really glad that i have too,its been good to go from the guy that lived on a routine always going-seminary,school,run,home,read,sleep repeat. probly with read thrown in alot more than that and then theres now, at the moment im living on routine but thats jsut because of my lack of school going on but for the most part now i live planning as i go that is to say not planning at all =)
i feel old
thats alot of what goes through my mind now
i graduate in the spring
college or a job in the coming fall
mission in 2013
i feel old
i feel like so much hasnt happend in my teenage years yet at the same time so much
ive lived the last 4 years of my life with the motto of- "To give anything less than your best is to sacrifice the gift" for the most part ive tried to stay strong to that and ive very much so learned what that statement truely means
heres to yet another amazing year and a hope that this one beats even my last one

Thinking(5/26/11)

2011-05-26T18:15:00.001-07:00

Cant really keep my brain flowing on my project so im taking a break.

"All around us are influences, our surroundings constantly mold us, shaping who we are, but only you can choose the end picture. Even if you are raised out of weeds, if you can stretch yourself tall enough, you'll see the sun and realize what you wanna become."-Josh Ward

today i ran into a fansite on facebook through a friends page, this fanpage was a memorial for Josh Ward
I personaly never knew Josh but after digging a little i found and remembered some connecting lines that are interesting.
He was 11 months to the day older than me
He ran track and cross country
His sophmore and because of a car accident life PR was 17.22 (ame as my SF year)
I raced with him once at lake wilderness
He enjoyed hiking
His friends took a memorial up to the top of Mt.Si last year within days of Jason and i's hike up. I noticed the memorial first and was intrigued
Josh was LDS
His family lives near me (the older Wards)
All in all Josh sounded like a guy that i probably would have gotten along really well with and reading what his friends and family said about him and a few quotes from him,im inspired by him, someone i never met has lit a spark of inspiration inside of me and i look forward to the day when i can meet this young man on the other side.

A bit from his eulogy
-"He learned to love running and ran pretty much every day. He liked to push himself and see how far he could go. Once he ran out on the Snoqualmie Valley trail to see how far he could go, but I don’t think he thought about the fact he had to run back too until he had gone too far. He ran 20 miles that day and was really sore for a while."

"Make every decision with thought
You don't know what tangent path
It'll throw you on
The butterfly (will) affect your world"

But ya, all in all going through all that and learning about someone i never knew yet had so mush in common with was an interesting experience

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School is almost over, life has pretty much come full circle in the past year
i see in my future over the next few months lots of trails and lots of vauluntary discomfort XD
Fires,runs,hikes,campouts,friends,adventures.
should be one fun summer =)
now just to finish up this year....

The summer bucket list(5/20/11)

2011-05-20T20:06:00.000-07:00

1.Go to the drive in
2.Eat an entire XXX burger
3.Hike at least once a week
4.Run 6 Days a week
5.Get at least 500 miles in
6.Go on a run longer than 13 miles
7.Go on a camping trip with the group
8.Go fishing
9.Drive out to fort warden
10.Picnic somewhere random
11.Fly kites
12.Float the river
13.Go to flaming geyser
14.Beach camping/backpacking
15.Leave the state at least once
16.Bonfires galore
17.End of school year party (this really shoulda been at the top)
18.Burn "the pile" =)
19.Go on a crazy shirtless night run =)
20.Watch the meteor shower
21.Swim in the ocean
22.Go to the pool hall in the valley
23.The insane day =)
more to be added

Living life (4/30/11)

2011-04-30T17:23:00.000-07:00

School,running,life
starting from the middle....
Running has kinda been blah for a while now, my body has been practialy telling me that it doenst like me and wants me to stop, every time i fix one problem another crops up.Been a depressing cylce but i dunno ive pretty much come to terms with it it and not let it bother me,there was a time when having all of this stuff happen with running would have torn me appart but now im pretty proud of where i am and how little its effecting my life.
One meet left havnt even come within reach of my 3200 time from last year but who knows, crazier things have happend

School consiting of BioAnthro,USHistory and Math. Anthro is both more and less than i went into it expecting,im really glad im taking it though, makes for a much more interesting alternative to normal biology,history is realy good but the teacher has a tendancy to go in circles and not be specific on any of the points he tries to get across, makes it a pain in the but for paying attention. Math has finaly gotten to the point where i am almost sad that i have a teacher that is impossible to understand,spent 2 and a half quarters being able to slack and half way listen and still get good grades in the class but now i actaly have to listen, like i said borderline depressing XD.

Life is going good,things on a whole are working out with school church running and everything combined.

Been a while

2011-02-08T17:14:00.000-08:00

Life has been moving along,one quarter of green river done and another half way through. Its both easier and harder than i expected some things im outright shocked would be considered a challenge others i look at the teacher and go "did you forget you were teaching a 100 level class?" but hey its all life its fun and exciting and different and all kinds of things. I will never on pain of death (or at least frustration) take a philosophy class again in all my college years at least not if i can help it.
Running has been a roller coaster ive been able to convince myself to run more in the winter months than ever before but now as track approaches i have the feelings bombard me that usualy hit me in the cold and dreary months of november and december not january and feburary i just had it hit me that "why run its dumb what really made you even start and like it in the first place?" and that hit me,hard, i never give that question much thought when im feeling like that but for some reason i did and i seriously went to the brink considering quiting competative running for good giving up a pointless thing and for a few days i just quit running heck a week and i have to say it felt good but in the end that is not who i am.
I am a fighter who wont get put back by the winterrunningblues i will not back down and i will fight this to the end and heck i cant stop with so many people being able to say that they beat me thats just not ok.
I want my spot back.
No matter what i felt then i cant let it overpower me because in the end i am a runner who will not give up ever.

Awesome week

2010-10-03T17:42:00.001-07:00

Well starting point is thursday the day after the double dual meet with KL and Auburn coach pulled Galen and i aside and he talked to us about how we needed to get our heads on straight for raceing and that we were going to do an alternate workout of going to mattson and running a pyramid workout at our racef pace all the laps the exact same time so that we would get more used to it and comfortable with it.
that night i wasup late writting a paper for school and then the next day i didnt have geography so i had lotsa time to get the stuff together to ask Jenni to homecoming and then with my second open hour i filled all the balloons which i have to admit looked pretty awesome filling my car up with them
Then psych i still need a solution to pay better attention he can be a little bit of a drag sometimes
then for the fun part when i went to the church building and covered Jenni's car with all the balloons i had split a note asking her between them all and it was cool and fun to set up
then practice after school and all that fun
jumping off mac's jeep and hurting myself
going to my first football game
tomahawk twilight invite i am finaly back i can really race again i took my spot and my time back and im pretty sure that i can get back on track for my plan so all is well
after my race logan and i went and ran the open and collected more people as we went ( GO TEAM PLATAPI!!!) it was awesome we had a blast doing the whole linked arms finish thing that you see so often
and to another note (im kinda bouncing off of everything)
we took 3rd at the meet so that was pretty dang cool and ya then general conferance and now
life is good =)

school?

2010-09-03T12:37:00.000-07:00

School has started , well kinda, one class a day till the 7th then seminary starts and then no more classes added on till the 20th. Life is good its nice getting to relax for now.
XC started last month and the team is really improving we should be able to do pretty well this year
i didnt really post all summer so now i will take teh time to mention the fact that i got my license, i went on a bunch of hikes with jason and ran and biked alot over the summer and then i went camping this last weekend, o and of course cross country camp back in july was awesome a ton of work but i had a blast and am glad that this year i kept training after it XD
all is well to say the least

Summer is here

2010-06-23T14:31:00.000-07:00

It is finaly here =)
school is over and i dont really miss it to terribly much , i mean there was some good stuff but now i can stop stressing about everything, i can finaly relax.
the downside to that is that right as school was ending i was starting to get sick and now that its over and im on break im just stuck here being miserable . well not as much anymore but still those first few days of summer were a bit of a downer cuz really who wants to jump into summer and not be able to do anything. ive just been chilling around the house bumming it out, first day i beat my bros copy of modern warfare, second i vegged out watching movies and third went to the books. more or less thats all ive been up to. went on a run with the morning group yesterday and had fun hurt like none other something wrong with my stomache, probably just being angry at me for making my body work before it felt better. im definately ready for utah, i need a little sun in life right now...even if it has to be scorching XD
The list
-500miles
-some roadraces
-xc camp in utah
-study up on math so i can get into 101
-watch the meteor shower when it comes around
-study for SAT
-read alot! ive had to cut back on all my reading till midnight this year between my newfound dedication to schooling and my dedication to my sports
-go camping at some point
-get a job
-find time to actualy hang out with the friends that i didnt spend much time iwth for a long time
-more running but for fun,just messing around instread of serious traininig
-finaly just relax and chill

we shall see if i catualy get the chance to do any of it, i sure hope so first time ive actualy made a to do list of summer things like this, my friends must be a bad influence

yaaaaay

2010-06-01T20:29:00.001-07:00

i can run!!!!!!!!
i went out today before drivers ed for a run to experiment if i could do it without pain and shocker im finaly recovered from my injuries =)
today was cool im such a slacker in math we dont pay very much attention and its hilarious she keeps getting upset for some reason =)
and then there is the reoccuring deathtrap we like to call stage tech, gotta love it
thats been pretty tight and im going to miss it if i cant convince my counsolor to let me in even with green river
18 1/2 days till school is out and im geting a bit stressed i mean the workload isnt too bad but still a little much for my slacker brain, im not makeing the same mistake that i always to by going autopilot tho i need to actualy see this through and get this thing done with a bang as i cross the line

recovered?

2010-05-22T12:36:00.001-07:00

so i didnt really talk about it on this cuz i was physicaly and mentaly taking a break from running but on my last meet against KM i was injured, pretty bad too, i either pulled or strained something in my lower back and it made me limp really bad and hurt like none other even walking. So after i survived through the race (and beat one of my teammates that was cheating btw) i pretty much backed off and chilled coach had said it would take about a week to recover and now 2 weeks later i went for a run and it still twinged i dont know how to help it recover that lats bit or if its just that the muscle is weak from not getting used.
those two weeks of no running were insanely hard for me cuz i had some crap that i needed to run off really bad and couldnt. Normaly i would have taken those 2 weeks off anyway but if i really needed it i could have ran still it was a bad feeling know ing that i COULDNT do it. school was a pain to cuz stopping running threw of my head and schedule and made me more tiered and also walking around all day on a messed up butt muscle is no fun whatsoever. Now i guess it will just be a wait and see. I i can still feel it by the middle of next week im thinking it will be time for doctor involvement its not that i cant handle it and its effecting life or running a ton but if i meesed it up bad and will just make it worse if i dont fix it i want to know.
Ap bio is officialy over and now just bioethics so thats a pro i think i may have done ok on the test but i dunno and its a nice change not having tests hanging over my head like they always did for that class.
the rest of life is going pretty well im still figureing out GRCC and running start but that shouldnt be too complicated.

high points touch bac on it all soon enough

2010-04-19T20:57:00.000-07:00

i won a race-the 3200 or 2 mile for the nonrunners
got a 10.23 which was cool the next race was funny with a 4.59 first mile split and a 5.32 second split crappy but w/e
the mile i got down to 4.51 this last week in the fresh/soph invite the meet as a whole was pretty tight but coulda been better the 2 mile i shoulda won i was kinda slacking and pretty much "sitting" around practicaly a bounce i didnt relize how much energy the guy behind me had left till the end and it really bit me in the but i started my kick a little late around the 600m mark and wasnt up to speed till the start of lap 8 sped upo to a 79 but the guy still picked me off in the last 200....my usual HEY THERE MISS ME!? spot so that hurt the pride a bit , i still used up a ton of energy on that race so i didnt have the great kick but like earlier w/e
then the 4x400 beast of a race , to be honest even i didnt know i had that much footspeed in me i ripped it and got a 56 fastest in my group, it was a blast i cought the relay team back up with my speed but in the end the dang filthy sprinter ;) lol jk the're all right but he pulling a sprinter move pulled back up and out kicked me, pretty dang good for a humble distance kid if i do say so myself...and i do.....jk lol but it was a blast the endorphines were great the lack of pain was nice too

life?

2010-03-23T20:14:00.000-07:00

so my life is a little odd im kinda living for the next practice from day to day just fighing through and getting things done just to make it through
in a way that is ok but my life is just kinds blech at the moment classes are killer and im not meaning that as killer hard and some of my teachers are driving me nuts.
im kinda glad i DO have running just so that i have something to look forward to that will make the day better i mean my friends make my days bearable and give me something to lookforward to at class but im going insane with it all.
o btw thursday was a one second pr (4.53.40) and a how ever much pr in the 3200- 10.32

then saturday was a blast with the invite and geting to mess around iwth everybody and hang out and get some halfway decent sleep on the bus, i Pr'ed by .02 seconds at that one.

16 and under 5

2010-03-14T12:28:00.000-07:00

well altogether a pretty good week ,thursday i turned 16 so happy day
then yesterday i finaly hit my first goal of breaking a five minute mile (4.54)
then got into the 800 and won my heat with a 2.17 then dance that was pretty fun that night

Track and the good life =)

2010-03-05T20:59:00.000-08:00

well life is pretty darn good for me right about now track started monday and im still doing pretty darn good.today we did a mile time trial and im in shape enough to scrape a 5.06 so im fairly happy with myself. overall track has been pretty good its a nice destraction from it all i can actualy relax and chill now im geting better in my classes and understanding things a lot better i finaly got a b on a bio test hip hip hooray lol and that is w/out corrections and ive just been happy about life and on the day this week that i was feeling all crappy and everything i got out of class got to track and it was all "uphill" from there lol wow im being so punny but ya hill workouts that day and apparently i finaly fixed my form i think the words were beautiful and best ive seen you have yet so another plus since i have been working pretty dang hard on it.

12 for track 22 for sixteen

2010-02-16T15:33:00.000-08:00

well i decided that i should post a little something since i havnt in a bit , i cant remember what exactly i posted last so i might leave stuff out or go over stuff again.
so something a friend said got me thinking - like alot, i was told to step up and do my part in every aspsct of my life running school church all of it, so i did a re-evaluation of my life as i see it
and just looking at things ya im doing better but really my heart hasnt been in alot of what ive been doing for a while so im going back into life fighting , i had gotten to a point where i wasnt reading my scriptures as much as i should be so i fixed that, i hadnt been running very seriously so i wrote out a plan for myself and im following through with it so that i can kick some major but this coming season. and with school i already kinda knew i wasnt on the total right track so i had already been veering back into the right and doing better now im pushing myself even harder.
and then with my other aspects of life ive been driving some even if my mom wont let me drive with her yet and that has been kinda fun
one of the big things that i want to change is the fact that i havent rlly been doing things with my friends for quite a while, shool and running have kinda taken over my life and consumed everything else.

lets hope im in good enough shape in 12 days

When life gets strange in the head

2010-02-04T20:51:00.000-08:00

so heres the update so far, i have my permit not hip hip hoora
All my finals are over and my relaxing classes are 2mrro
I have been running even if its just speed work mainly (i see anything less than 4 miles as speed work)
there is a slim possiblity that i will get to take the comapss test on sat but if i dont i sohuld be later next week
after that im free
this past like forever and a year i have been going a little stressed out crazy and now that all my tests and stuff are over i can relax a bit more and just do a little more of what i want i have to start getting up better so i can drive to seminary if im slow i wont get to be the one behind the wheel =(
soo yea thats about it the general stress is over and the new semester is coming, track is quickly aproaching and im struggling to get back into shape on time
im signing up for next years classes soon so more stress soon
im rambling again so im gunna cut this post off -

Life

2010-02-01T22:19:00.000-08:00

well school is now just about halfway over and i figured it all out well enough i made it
and friends have shifted postions and other various things but in the end its all going pretty good
im about to jump into stress headfirst but whatever you can only do so much, i am planning on tackling -The permit test
-the compass test
-finals
-keeping my regular life in order
-running my but off with whats going on
-figureing everything out
so im purely terrified to be frankly honest that i will screw up on any number of those things so if i seem a little off that is me trying to cope through the week if im seeming close to normal i probably ran recently so i guess i will update when all thats over

Best of EFY 2010

2010-01-31T20:07:00.000-08:00

highlight of the month(so far)
so yesterday i went to best of efy and had a blast the speakers were awesome and really helpful/entertaining and the dance was probably the best one ive been to since XC camp i actualy was able to be me again, (with some nudging along from a friend) and i just had fun which i honestly dont get to do as often as i would like but it was fun i bounced around talking to most everybody in my various groups, i had some good talks with people that i dont get to very often anymore and it was overall just a blast

i was told i hadnt posted since november

2010-01-20T18:36:00.000-08:00

life keeps on moving
well Traci got married and got outa here off to idaho so now its finaly quiet
09 is officialy over wootwoot
And now on to this year 2010
School is back(BOOOOOOOO) and i got fairly frustrated with my english teacher about
how much stuff he has for us in such a short time blech and i wont get into my rant about APBIO
so onto much happier things i have started running again and magicaly im back into a better mindset and better mood =)
its taking a toll but i love it anyway
49 days till freedom =)

November

2009-11-23T20:49:00.000-08:00

well i figure i should post sometime or another no we didnt end up making it but it wasn't that big of a deal at districts i got 65 with 17:29.5 so that was a disappointment, the main reason that sucked is that i was 3rd for my team with that place and time but whatever nobody can stop the swine.
My classes and everything have been improving a ton i have 4 A's one B and one C all in all decent grades the c is a little sad but hey it is APBio so there isnt a ton that i can do mostly since season got over my schedule dropped and i now have nothing occupying my free time but video games books and music, kinda sad that i cant motivate myself enough to pick my but off the couch. eventually im going to have to jump back into it and start running but that will be another day ;)
Seminary-school-bus-walk-hw/book/music/video games-eat-sleep-repeat
i really need to do something before i go nuts
books are good =)

Im back into the track of thinking i might do theater tech aain next year but it keeps changing like every other thing in my life right now we shall see

League

2009-10-24T19:51:00.000-07:00

well i did it i both made it as individual to districts and i also helped to make it so my team made it as a team in pretty happy i even PD'ed with a time of 17:21 (2 second PR) and i made it through the whole season on varsity racing most of it as our #5 runner a big leap from last year(about #14 with a PR of 19:22) so im pretty much happy camper man
failing my first APBio test was a very humbling experience but the fact that the average test score was like a 55% softened that blow. Im actualy doing fairly well in my classes considering this is the first time ive ever challanged myself with harder classes i guess its just that now i have the long term perspective of things and am trying to whip my butt into gear. Photography is by far my favorite class this year actualy giving me something good to stay awake with in the mornings im still having my issues with my math class which i still find funny since im wide awake in seminaryjust half an hour before.
im not sure why but theater tech just isnt as enjoyable for mwe this year its kinda weird i mean i pretty much loved the class last year but now its just like blech ok next why are we doing this crap
o and back to running the highlight of the day, i am totaly likeing this years team its AWESOME all the sophmores are pretty tight nit so thats cool because of all the invites and just the link of our races ive gotten to know the varsity guys alot better and they are all pretty cool even though a few of them kept bouncing around their spots on the team. Im lookin forward to districts soooo much im glad that i get to go this year. i should post next saturday if we make it as a team to state. so until then

moving up

2009-10-01T20:23:00.000-07:00

well seaside was a total and complete blast i did amazing too i got a 18:03 and 36th, 10th in my division so i even got a medal so that was tight. it was cool to watch everybody else totally drench themselves in the mudpit .
on this last meet Wednesday i made yet again another minute PR hitting 17:23 so that was awesome and with that race i moved from 7th to #5 so now im actually fairly important to the team scoring ,im lovig it though these past couple of days have been amazing ive just finally been bursting through and being able to run my heart out like never before it feels amazing and even when im running that fast i dont feel it taxing my body quite as much running that hard that fast

school has been great ive been surprised that everything is sliding together as nice as it is, photo is fun tech normally should be fun but my teacher found a way to tick me off but w/e i figured a way around that anyway, my teachers are all pretty good except for my math teacher who shouldnt really be labeled as a teacher since all she ever does is read out of the book not really teaching us much from her own intellect which is depressing its one of those classes that you can sit in the back reading a book half the time and still know it better that most of the people who were listening getting confused. all in all life is good at the moment slightly simple in some aspects hard or complicated in others im still living it up anyway.

as ive said in the past seminary is freaking amazing even if it cuts an hour of sleep out of my life its worth it life probly wouldnt be going so smooth without it.

i should post more in the next week or two but i dunno

Varsity =)

2009-09-08T19:34:00.000-07:00

well i did it i am now officialy on varsity for now
i made it hurt like heck but i did it nearly puked too
at the last bit i ended up losing it mentaly and physicaly dropping me to 7th from 6th
i wasnt sure which way to turn so i paused for a second alowing the guy behind me to pass me and take the 6th place slot and in the end i was unable to catch him on the finaly hill
im still content with just being bottom slot varsity its higher than i was all of last year

a summery

2009-09-03T19:46:00.000-07:00

cross country started and has been amazing, school is still out due to the fact that the school district is full of dummys that dont like being reasonable,it should start on wednesday because the district (in my mind) cheated and took it to court forcing the teachers back to school
today was pretty much my favorite practice ever because we both avoided hard work while still having a blast we had a team scavenger hunt going all around the covington area taking pictures of things with us in them to earn points it was pretty awesome
i had a fire last week with a few friends and that was pretty cool getting to spend time with everybody
lets think oh ya and i had a blast at the dance that saturday cuz i got to spend some time with people i hadnt seen in a long time
that about sums it up other than i hope school starts soon and i hope i get alot faster soon

XC camp and the times after

2009-08-12T10:39:00.000-07:00

so pretty much i have had alot happen recently, i went to Utah for cross country camp and had an awesome time with everyone there it was an all around good experience and it should help my running the food got a little repetitive by the end but it was still good the dances were pretty much freaking awesome they were huge outdoor dances with all the sports camps and to put some perspective on that XC had over 100 people and we were one of the smallest camps and there were like 4 or 5 other camps at the dances it was awesome ,my roommate was a cool fast guy from Texas and pretty much my whole dorm group was cool, 7 peaks was pretty tight even if one of the slides scared the crap outa me cuz you got what felt like a ton of air.
The classes were good and the staff was great ,the runs were freaking awesome and it was pretty cool to run through a waterfall.
On the way back home we went to my aunt and uncles house to pick up Traci and visit with them it was good to see them and Traci after not for so long. The Rexburg temple was pretty cool looking.
and on a previous note on the way up i got to go to the Oquirrh Mountain temple open house and that was amazing being able to go through the temple and see the different parts of it.
The trip home was slightly uneventful
So this last week i got to go backpacking in the Alpine lakes wilderness area and that was amazing the mountains and lakes were beautiful except for lower wildcat that was definatly a crappy sucky place the lakes were freezing though it is nice to be back and the triple X pit stop was a good thing to have on the trip home. =)
well since then its just been kinda boring and slow paced i might race today though so that would be cool.

summer fun run

2009-07-13T16:46:00.000-07:00

i had a run on saturday(7/11)
it was a 5K and i did pretty good i got 5th in my age group(14-18) and around 10th overall with a time of 18:58 it was awsome!
that night i had a really fun time and went to a dance and got to hang out with a friend i hadnt seen since school was in and her cousins
then today i actualy went to another XC practice and that was fun we passed a BBall while running our practice and shot some hoops along the way

Summertime

2009-07-01T15:52:00.000-07:00

well i made it through happy dayI actualy had an awsome year i had mostly good teachers and an awsome advisor
i did ok in my sports and ended the year without regrets which is good well no thats a lie i regret that i never broke 5 ;)
I started off my summer with youth conference and that was pretty much awsome to do,we went out to a place on the coast called cornet bay for a few days the dance wasnt as good as a normal one but i still had a blast with everybody that wasnt sulkingand
now im trying really hard to actualy be prepared fo XC camp at the end of this month

2009-07-01T15:50:00.001-07:00

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2009-05-11T17:53:00.000-07:00

well i didnt hit it i PRed by a second but still i was depressed i crossed the line heard the time and was grumpy with myself i hit a 5.03 so better but not a broken 5
tracks over school only has a while left and im really looking forward to this summer

5

2009-05-02T13:58:00.000-07:00

holy cow its been a long time since i wrote
well track season has been really good,and to explain the title of todays blog -
my goal of the season has been to hit under a five minute mile and last week i hit 5.04 cutting down my preiveious best of 5.14 to think the first day of practice the best i could do was a 6.00
and with my season coming to an end,i may or may not make my goal but i sure as heck am going to try,my coach pulled a couple of us aside yesterday and told us that he had the goal of five under fiver and that to reach that goal he needed 3 more guys to break it so i am going to try hardre than i ve ever tried before both at practice ot prepare and at my last meet of my freshman year on wednseday.

on to other topics im sooooooo glad this school year is coming to an end it beem good and all but it just felt a little off, im really looking forward to getting my family together again for Johns wedding especialy since i havent seen Jason and Tina for over a year

well im crossing my fingers for a 4.59 or better

my mind is a little better ;)

2009-03-26T20:51:00.000-07:00

well 2nd meet was ok ...ish the shoe coming untied wasnt that great but hey we all have those days
school is being a little tough and well life is just being complicated but hey we wouldnt call it life if it wasnt
like i mentioned track is great and im really progressing
as always music is really the constant core of me and my song of the day/week (for now) is Iris-GooGooDolls

stress to the 5th power

2009-03-24T21:03:00.000-07:00

blech i m not having fun with the whole freshman project thing and beside that life is just being stupid im probly in this mindset cuz im tiered and sore and ticked off grr well at least i have Thursdays meet to look forward to but even still well im gunna blog later when my head is actualy clear

first meet of the season

2009-03-19T21:09:00.000-07:00

well i ran
1600(1 mile)-5.27
3200(2mile)-11.47
the mile i got 7th but well i could have done better but well nobody is perfect, next week at KR i will improve that one.
3200 made me look bad but i still ran well post more later

blech i hate WASL!!!!!!even if im not taking it

2009-03-17T08:30:00.000-07:00

well im not even taking the WASL and its being its evil self to me im stuck in a computer lab for 3 hours just so that they can keep us out of the new building grrr i hate wasl it sucks well i signed up for my classes but im not sure if im doing the ones i need to.....grrr...at least seminary was good so ya HAIL HURTS really bad we were doing 2 sets of 3, 600 meters so 36 meters total if i did the math right (not likely)
well ya tracks good i might get to race this week but im not sure if i dont my first race will be the race that we are going against Kentridge.

4 days

2009-03-07T11:47:00.000-08:00

well my birthday is in 4 days im not sure if i can get my grades high enough by then though(stupid science teacher)
i hurt myself in track cuz i didnt run enough before the season but with tracis help it feels alot better than before (now i can walk on it without being in too much pain
o ya and its my padres b-day

track

2009-03-02T19:55:00.000-08:00

im sooooooo jittery i cant sit still or type well, hw is fun when you cant stop shaking, i hve a runners high (more endorphines than normal) and my inhaler gave me the energy (oxygen =) to do it
track is good 4 now, it just started today
life is good =)
happy day =)
(1 year 9 days =)
HYPER!!!!!

life

2009-02-04T17:18:00.000-08:00

so i haven't blogged i a while due to distractions school books running and other stuff but i decided that i should post something to update everyone on my life, well i finished the semester, i actually made it fairly well too, the only disappointment was English.....the c.......one single c........and it is the reason that this march i will not be enrolling in drivers ed it sucks but hey i will live, i only have to get through this quarter, i realized when talking to some old friends really how much it sucks not to see someone for a long time, I'm planning on going up to Utah this summer for a cross country camp it should be a blast .... and enough to get me fast enough to bump me onto varsity this next year , well moving on from that Ive had a fun time in theater tech still, defiantly my favorite class,the one bad thing about living where i do is that i can never get where i want to with my runs cuz everything is too far away.
well i guess i will type more later.

January

2009-01-03T19:47:00.000-08:00

well its a new year,school starts back up on monday and should be nice to get back and escape from home, funny i spend the whole time at school wanting to be home and when im at home i spend the whole time wanting to be at school , then there is when im running, i always want to be there =)
i havnt really been able to find much time to go and ive been too lazy the days i actualy have the time
track is getting really close , i miss running with my team,should be good
im planning on doing either the 800,1600, or the 3200, or a combo of two of them, well time will tell......

more snow!

2008-12-18T15:31:00.000-08:00

Well it finally snowed enough to cancel school, and i didnt really do much cuz the rents either were working or didnt want to leave the house..........

i went for a walk and that was fun , the snow is hppy =)

life is good, its Christmas time,so merry Christmas y'all =)

if i didnt say it before, (for all of you that will know what im talking about) Im the Teachers quarm president

snow is fun =)

SNOW!

2008-12-13T21:35:00.000-08:00

This morning i ran in the christmas rush and ran it in 20:23 (since XC i havint practiced much,that waslike in october =)
then it started snowing and that was cool ,after that i helped my mom set up our ward party
then after it some friendns of mine and i went and threw snow at each other =)
life is good =)
happy day

November

2008-11-24T16:58:00.000-08:00

Well this has been a good month, i got varsity letter in XC even though i was a little JV guy =)
also i have kinda figured out a nice balance with school and stuff, i havnt been running as often
as i would have liked but i get a some good 6+ milers on the weekends if im not feeling to lazy and bum like , i (re)found an artist called The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus that are REALLY GOOD
i thought the KW play was ok but they could have cleaned it up u bit
mostly this year is just scrapping byslowly and very boring, stuff like Theater Tech and Spanish have helped with not being bored but then again some new friends have too
well life is good and stuff so ya.

Rain

2008-11-06T18:47:00.000-08:00

the rain is good
school is in the 2nd quarter already and i like all but 2 of my teachers
i stopped running for 6 days then i ran and was very sore
i love seeing all the fall colors around and the long walks home are fun

New

2008-10-30T20:58:00.000-07:00

well i am done with cross country and dont know what to do with my life now =P,
life is good and classes are doing well so i think my life is running smoothly
i need to find more stuff to do though..........
ive been getting bored even though XC has only been over since tuesday.......

EPJ

Socialvibe

2008-10-25T15:26:00.001-07:00

this is a really cool thing that i joind

SPSL League

2008-10-25T10:03:00.000-07:00

well it happened and i did good, 69th place out of 311 it was a ridiculous start i almost fell cuz somebody tripped me, it was a good race to end my season , i got about a 1 min PR so that was cool 19:22:89.........
well moving to on, my cross country season ends on Tuesday so that's sad , i will actually get my life back, =P
im planning on running in the Christmas rush
i still dont know what to do....

Rough Draft

2008-10-22T19:28:00.000-07:00

Yellowcard Rough draft ........ i didnt know you could do this stuff

Thursday

2008-10-21T19:42:00.000-07:00

I'm so nervous about Thursday, i have league and I'm just nervous about it i was sick from Wednesday till about Monday and am just starting to feel better, when i came back to school i found out that all my running stuff was stolen and then i went and talked to my friend and found out some stuff that made me really mad , so ya now I'm just trying to recover i got new shoes and they should actually be better than the other ones would have, i just don't know if I'm in the right mental set to do it.... I'm hoping and really need to be able to run like a horse on Thursday, my hopes are to get a good JV time and PR so that i can get most improved, i just have too much running through my head,school is a pain but that is nothing new, i love the rain and the fall leaves.

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2008-10-05T17:22:00.000-07:00

4 is awsome!!!!!!!!!
i got 4th place on a race on the 4th day of the month on my unckles b-day
4 is just now lucky ,and i guess this april was ok too
so ya awsome race
i still dont know my time but i will soon
school is still good and life is going very good

School

2008-09-27T17:10:00.000-07:00

XC is still going great i had another race on wednesday and got 30th with a time of 20.43:97
im still improving alot its realy fun school has gotten a little worse but a little better too, i realy like being able to finish my day with a run its great

May

2008-09-20T13:42:00.000-07:00

when all is changing and when some friends forget their promises is it right to move on and go with chage?
i am so glad that it is raining its like its actualy fall or something =)
XC is getting to be more and more fun.

The race

2008-09-18T18:29:00.000-07:00

wow so yesterday was my first XC meet and it was great i got 46th place in the JV race at the time of 22:11 it was awsome and i went head to head with my teamate for the final streach.
so much fun

Paper Walls

2008-09-15T19:41:00.000-07:00

ive been thinking and Yellowcard music is helpfull
running is amazingly calming sometimes and it soothes
the mind after a realy bad day.
KW ROCKS!

High school

2008-09-12T23:33:00.000-07:00

well ive survived this long .......xc is a pain in the neck but its helping me to survive this all, ive been having a social life consisting of a couple friends and my team, and im perfectly ok with that cuz they are awesome even if i havnt been able to hang out with many of my mattson friends well the other help is my friends from church, they (hehe)have been able to help my sanity alot .
life is awome ,
as always, a payne