Been a while

Life has been moving along,one quarter of green river done and another half way through. Its both easier and harder than i expected some things im outright shocked would be considered a challenge others i look at the teacher and go "did you forget you were teaching a 100 level class?" but hey its all life its fun and exciting and different and all kinds of things. I will never on pain of death (or at least frustration) take a philosophy class again in all my college years at least not if i can help it.
Running has been a roller coaster ive been able to convince myself to run more in the winter months than ever before but now as track approaches i have the feelings bombard me that usualy hit me in the cold and dreary months of november and december not january and feburary i just had it hit me that "why run its dumb what really made you even start and like it in the first place?" and that hit me,hard, i never give that question much thought when im feeling like that but for some reason i did and i seriously went to the brink considering quiting competative running for good giving up a pointless thing and for a few days i just quit running heck a week and i have to say it felt good but in the end that is not who i am.
I am a fighter who wont get put back by the winterrunningblues i will not back down and i will fight this to the end and heck i cant stop with so many people being able to say that they beat me thats just not ok.
I want my spot back.
No matter what i felt then i cant let it overpower me because in the end i am a runner who will not give up ever.